Now this is how my seedlings were meant to turn out like. These are Debbie’s from garden group and as you can see she has had much better success than Melanie and I. Our seedlings, for what ever reason, had not done so well and I was feeling behind the eight ball. After posting about it I got a number of comments to swallow my pride and just go and buy some.
Like a lot of emotional blockers that get in the way of us achieving our dreams or living a fulfilling life, the owner of the blocker can often not be aware of its existence. I definitely was not aware my pride was getting in the way of having a pumper summer crop. But as soon as I read your comments I started thinking. Growing from seed made me feel like a REAL gardener. While the thought of going to a shop and buying plants made me feel like a failure. Buying seedlings is what I did when I started gardening, surly I am beyond that now.
The subconscious is an interesting beast, it attempts to guards us from harm including failure. It does this by blocking potential options or ideas that IT believes are harmful. In my case it never even occurred to me that buying seedlings was even an option, despite how obvious it is. Now while stopping me from considering the painful option of buying seedlings did indeed provide a small level of comfort my subconscious was not smart enough to consider the bigger picture. Having a highly productive garden putting lots of yummy fresh food on the table is way more important than how I obtain seedlings. And it will make me feel like a REAL gardener even more.
Once I had freed myself of this silly blockage I was open to greater possibilities that are always there just waiting in the wing. So after spending a rewarding Saturday afternoon with my gardening group helping Debbie plant out her seedlings she generously donated some to Melanie and I. And as I have helped Debbie establish seedling in the past these kind of felt like mine. I still bought a few from the store but in the end very few. The big box on the left is from Debbie and the little one on the right from the store.
Having the courage to point out blockages obvious in others I believe is one of the important roles of a good friend. I am the last person to admit that friends can be found through a keyboard and screen but what you guys (Hazel, veggiegobbler, 500m2, serendipity2000, Fairy Castle Farm) did sure feels like an act of friendship to me. Thanks. And a big thanks to you Debbie my in the dirt friend for your generosity.